Of course not. I didn't mean it like that at all. I didn't mean the life was boring Kushina. I... I want the life so much.
[He pressed his hand over his heart and dipped his head, trying to find the words to explain this properly.]
But who I was there... I was bland. I had no drive, and even the passion for history that I had seemed to falter in the face of a sense of more. Not of danger. Just... being needed for something important.
My accomplishments in that world, those memories, were all family, and I treasure that... but they're not accomplishments I've ever actually done. I've never raised a child. I've never married. I never had a sibling. I had Konan, Yahiko, and Sensei, and I was a leader, but a leader has to keep themselves held a little away if they want to be objective, so while I was so proud of what my people did in Ame... I wasn't exactly included in it.
[He stalled out, looking to his lap.]
I don't... believe I'm explaining this properly, am I?
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[He pressed his hand over his heart and dipped his head, trying to find the words to explain this properly.]
But who I was there... I was bland. I had no drive, and even the passion for history that I had seemed to falter in the face of a sense of more. Not of danger. Just... being needed for something important.
My accomplishments in that world, those memories, were all family, and I treasure that... but they're not accomplishments I've ever actually done. I've never raised a child. I've never married. I never had a sibling. I had Konan, Yahiko, and Sensei, and I was a leader, but a leader has to keep themselves held a little away if they want to be objective, so while I was so proud of what my people did in Ame... I wasn't exactly included in it.
[He stalled out, looking to his lap.]
I don't... believe I'm explaining this properly, am I?